God is good. Since we've been in West Texas we've had three cars totaled, I've battled pneumonia, been diagnosed with type 2 diabetes and high blood pressure. We have suffered the disappointment of ruptured relationships and frustration with work. And in all this the only constant has been God's provision. It's been a consistent flow of blessing. Not whoopy wow blessing but a steady stream of everyday blessings and we are blessed every day.
It's been tough and continues to be tough is some ways but even though it has been frustration after frustration we've been comforted and encouraged at just the right time in the right way from the right source.
We're trying to see what He would have us learn from this but as I have been reminded by folks back "home" perhaps we're just learning to live out lessons we've already learned. We certainly have the truth of His promises confirmed in a steady and comforting manner.
We are blessedly frustrated. But who wouldn't be having left 20 plus years of labor and wonderful relationships? We MISS all we left and that really interferes with rejoicing in what we have. There is a tension there that is hard to overcome.
I'd love to say that we are having a wilderness experience but if I really look at what He has done, the difficult and the easy I can't quite make the wilderness thing apply. Perhaps it's more like (kind of) the Babylonian Captivity (???????) We long to return to Jerusalem and as wait for Him. But that does not really work either. So we are at a lost to see clearly what He is doing (other than taking very good care of us).
Perhaps we are to "wait upon the Lord," and as we do we are to "renew our strength, as He prepares us to "mount upon on wings like eagles." Perhaps there is no clear biblical parallel to what we're going through except what is common to the lives of all believers at one point or another.
Well, whatever God is doing in our lives we are grateful. Confused but grateful!
